"Where have you hidden your twin?" my friends have asked me recently. He was asking me where is the Krizia that they knew back in elementary. The shy, silent,simple, invisible and obsolete Krizia, that used to have no impression, no impact to her batch. Now everything have changed, she is more expressive, talkative, bubbly, active, and definitely she learned to stand out and leave an impact to the people around her.

Summer 2004, a typical summer for an incoming freshman,but not for one girl. Though nothing significant really happened, no calamity, no accident, no great achievement, no nothing,only a feeling that dominoed to several others. This was the feeling of need, the need to change, to express and to come out from my shell. That night, I couldn't sleep,I realized that i Need to evolve, high school is very different from elementary, more sleepless nights, terror exams, heart-pounding deadlines and, on the positive side, the best of the best years. On that night i made up my mind, this June, a different Krizia will evolve.

Back then, I wasn't active, I'm just one of the students int he cream section, average for the group, does her work as a student, and i may say, that a year can pass that my teacher won't really know me. I couldn't save a stable set of friends, almost every year I would be with someone else, maybe because they can't open my box and see what's inside,i just don'tknow how. Then, I was an outcast.

But now, drastically, I've changes.The shy and quiet girl turned to a chatterbox. Then, you would just see a smile or grin, but now I laugh like crazy, the bubbly side of mine now emerged. The mediocre girl, surprisingly, topped her batch. Then, raising her hand and being called by the teacher would make her so nervous, but now she got used to it and is quite fond of it. The ever so mysterious girl has now opened up her box, she shows every quality that she has, almost every face of her is exposed, no matter how good or how evil it is. The girl who had usually been part of the crowd, has now learned to be part of the crowd.

For some, this might just be a petty change,but for me, it had been one of the greatest changes that I've ever had, and I don't regret my decision. This have opened a lot of windows for me, experiences that i will treasure, that if I didn't change, I won't be able to experience. The petty feeling of need transformed me to what i am,not only that my friends got to fumble through my bow, but also, I got to fumble through my own.And you ask, where's my twin? I've thrown her to oblivion, never to be found again.


long huh?.....that's my sickness.....redundant thoughts and word?....another sickness....hahaha...... grabe, i wanted to change a lot from my work, but i didn't it won't be authentic if I would change something right?....hahahaha......i wanted to change a lot to make it less redundant....hahahhaa......ewan....basta...... that's how bored i am.... oh well........mommy candice's calling me.......hahahaha...ciao!