maybe you're expecting a post about the game....but nah......we won anyhow.....=D...miracle...... this post is krizia's-twin talking....

why is life like this??? everything you plan, or was planned for you, are always not successful, always end with an unaccomplished plan. you know that i'm good in this and in that...ya sure(even i don't really agree much)....but as what i've wrote in my last theme.....i'm not yet that good....rather....i have one field that i want to further develop....and that's my speaking skill, to develop my self-confidence...ok the english speaking contest is really a good start....but still it's not enough......i mean you know, dinaya ko un....i wasn't wearing my glasses........so i really wanted another"exposure".....but i really didn't insist to....i just want it to come by my way......you know like others will ask me and stuff......so the chance came by......i actually didn't do good in the audition.....i wasn't expecting to get picked or what....but hek i was.......not for some good reason or what....it's because the other 2 already had their own participation in the event....so i was kinda the last resort.....ok, i accept, i knew it naman e...the other 2 are way better than me......but heck.......i am really anticipating for the event.....even though i only heard the chismis on thurs and confirmed it today...i really am excited for that experience.....but then again.....my plans are ruined.....why????hay......the event is on the same day as the sectoral team competition of the mtap.....if you were in my shoes, what will you choose? an in-school or off-school event.....syempre off-school dba.....???? i will be choosing mtap pa rin......i want to keep my word....i already said no to sir tom once...i don't want to repeat it again....so then again i wanted to this thing....it will be a great experience for me....technically it's a once in a life time opportunity......though there will be other events in the future.....this one makes a "mark"......ok may be you're wondering what i'm talking about.....it's about being the emcee in the JS.....

surprised? i really was.......am i right?? it's really a great opportunity....and it's one program that is really "anticipated"by people....it's not the ordinary contest that students don't care about.....it's the JS! THE js........hay.........maybe you think it's lame for me to cry about this stuff(haven't really cried YET)........but it's really something.....

feb 28....why of all the dates?????why on this day?? having 2 equally important events happening???????????? why??????i really can't find an answer, but i know God had something planned out for me, maybe this is a challenge.....i do hope He'll make a way for me to see the good side of this.....hopefully..........what i will be doing now is to confirm the date first from sir tom(sir magpagaling na kyo...)......then if it is really on the same day, then i'll inform mam chua......i don't really have a choice....hopefully pumayag cya na train ako then may sub.......but honestly naawa namn ako sa "sub".......kc i really want to do this...if i could just cut myself to half......hay.....honestly i don't want to completely say no......cause you know mtap....they keep on changing things...it had happened to me before, i had said no for something else, then eventually, what i choose was postponed and i wasn't able to join the other......i don't want this to happen again......i just don't want to........Lord help me....please please make my mind clear........make me realize the good side.........i may not emcee the event, i know You have a plan........

i really wanted to cry a while ago....ung before tiong lian.....specially when i found out that we weren't signed-up...so we don't have a sure seat...i really got frustrated about our class head(i'll try to confront him soon....hopefully i can in a nice way)........so that.....it really......grrr!!.....so un.....nangilid ang mga luha ko.....pinigilan ko...kc kung hindi magburst ako............so what i did....i shout! shout! shouted all my might in the game........normally i wont really shout as much.......but it really helped me to ease down that"pain"....ung asar......hndi ko alam kung kanino....sa mtap?sa JS(hindi)?.......sa akin?.....oo bka nga sa akin........

* sobrang down ako...wala kong ganang kumain...sana bkas maayos ko na sarili ko........Lord i need your help.......isipin mo nang mabababaw ako...pero ganito tlg ako.......sana......=D

*medyo magulo ung post.....at lost pa mind ko...pls bear with me...thnx.....