AJSS stuff....haha...post more about it next time....i'm just soo busy

How do I see myself as a person?

A public sari-sari store –that’s what I now see myself as.

Being born in a middle class, traditional Chinese family, almost all my life I could have enjoyed all the pleasures that girl could have, but I didn’t. My timidity pulled me back. Being a mediocre in class, I spent almost 12 years of my life in my own world, far from the crowd, all shy, silent—left out.

That was before, the long forth trashed out side of me. I am now enjoying my life. I try to bring out my best in every task given to me. No matter how hard, I put my heart into it, pouring out every bit of my determination into it. As a leader, I believe that one must be able to distribute work fairly, work with her members freely, and maintain a good relationship with them. I try my very best to achieve these, but still there are times that I fail, not only as a leader, but also as a student, and as a daughter. Whenever I fail, I opt to be optimistic, I always try to see the brighter side of life, and at times doing so is very hard. Finding the tiny beam of light, at times, is so difficult, and standing by this is much more challenging. During those times, the only thing that could lift my ego is laughter. “Laughter is the best medicine….and vitamin”—a cliché that I strongly believe in. Whenever I’m down, stressed or furious, giggling would lift up my ego. I won’t let a day pass without smiling, laughing and having a good time.

Now back to my first statement, why public sari-sari store? Like a sari-sari store, you could find a variety of personalities in me. I can be serious, at the same time I can be bubbly. I can be very studious and very “lazy”. I am factual, yet I have my own artistic side. I show everyone my true identity, what you see is what you get; I hate to be hypocritical and show off a false image of myself. Many say that I might seem crazy on my loud gestures, weird, a lot may say. But I don’t care; this is me, my own individuality that I developed through all those silent years. I take their criticisms as mere challenges, never to put me down, if I did, I should have been the worst person in this world.

That’s basically who I really am, full of variation. Through everything that I’ve gone through, subtle they might be, I’ve grown to be a better person, ready to face the challenges the life gives her. Always ready, always jolly, always on the go.